Now in School, doing project..... very sad right now... cos lost my cross keychain... sob sob.. later going out to ms sherine place for follow up session.... project mate, liyan nagging liao got to go...
Caleb at 11:40 AM

HO HO HO !!! Merry Christmas!!! back to update what has happened for the past few days...

Wednesday

Went to the town to shop for X'Mas Gift for the gals, together with Dennis. Takashimaya jam packed, cashier queue very very long.... then wanted to buy the friendship mug for Jin Cheng & Jon, but when reached , SOLD OUT...... after that went to Thalm's thoughts, wanting to buy the candle thingy but also SOLD OUT... I was like, What the.... have to go source for it again.... we walk from Taka to Centre point to shop for the gifts... finally manage to get all the gifts there... then after which try t ohelp dennis buy stuff for his mortal . in the end, bought nothing...

After that, went for our orientation discussion then go Jon's house play until morning 9 plus.... two words to describe,' Extremely Tired'.

Thursday

Went home to sleep for a few hours, then go to classmates house for housewarming and christmas celebration.. quite alright, though only a few of us turn up but stilll quite enjoy it... stayed there till 5 plus. After that, need to rush home to take the cheque for jon and rush down to sembawang for caroling rehearsal.. rehearse until 9 plus ten then waited for the bus for a good 20 mins.. Home Sweet Home~~

Friday

with a very tiring state of mind, went to school to do project.... very dragging cos didn't really figure out how to do... then all the share we bought keeps dropping like no one else business... meet from 11am to 4plus.. super long..after that stayed at home to rest, wrapped gift till 3am.. me not very pro, 1st time wrapping, and some more for gals... if not nice, me apologise here...

Saturday

The day has finally arrived.. two big event happen through out the day. 1stly, the change of captainship... Mr Alan after 5 years of service, step down as captain of bb 13th coy.. Really wanna thank God for him, cos he is very busy in his work yet he will still make the effort to come to parade every sat, meeting up with boys for cell group.. A BIG SALUTE TO MR ALAN!!!! With the change of captain and system (using squad level next year), i think there will be lotsa excitment next year~~

2nd event, Christmas Carol~~ went to toa payoh to sing to the old folks , quite happening.. lotsa fun.. especially my group, got jolie , sumei and yao hui, wee jian they all... one of the team was trapped in the lift for 1 hour... so they miss quite a lot of fun.... but i wanna tell them, your effort are not wasted, cos God is there with you all, knowing all that you've done for Him for this Christmas

after caroling, went to john's house for party... eat and give present to ppl... well wanna say that its really a joy to bless ppl, cos felt very happy when giving out the gift... also received lotsa of gifts from friends:

shirt - Sher and gals. thanks for the shirt, like the green color
streams of praise cds - huiling, thanks for the cd, will listen to the 2nd one tonight
Thong - thanks for the Paul Baloche CD, added another one to my list of Christian Cd ( only 4)

& lot & lot more!!!

but a bit malu.... cos forgot to take out price tag for the gift to cherie then best of all, jin cheng's gift, didn't take out receipts. "_" anyway, the price you all know will do, treat it that nothing happened...

Today is the longest entry i've ever wrote... Blessed Christmas to all~~
Caleb at 11:22 AM

Back to update about myself... today is the 2nd day of my 2-week holidays... Stayed at home in the afternoon until Jun Wen gave me a call asking whether wanna go JB, I was like okay... so sudden but in the end went. initiately, suppose to meet up with Dennis to go shop for Christmas Gifts but change it to Wednesday because of this. So sorry Dennis...

Anyway, Jonathan came to fetch me at around 5.30pm then drive in to JB to eat seafood 1st. Very nice the food next time will still go there to eat... spend about 100 over ringgit just the 4 of us... so cheap... after that went to city square to hunt for gifts but in the end bought only one gift and some cho-co-late... then hop on the car and on our way home....

Traffic jam at causeway for 1 hour like that... didn't expect weekday also so jam but still consider it quite fast... after reaching Singapore, decided to go to Jon's School, Halo Bar to sing KTV. We all like very mad like that.... Sing until 1 plus then go home.....

Today trip was really enjoyable.. especially today got special guest, catherine with us... here wanna thank Cat for going with us to JB. in future, must go out more often...

One more thing, my friend just send me a christmas email, very funny one, the link is here
http://www.syfc.org.sg/christmas05/hokkien-rec.htm
Caleb at 2:56 AM

Today was a tiring day for me.... went to school early in the morning at 9 plus for weekly parade... attendance was really poor, may be many of them still not used to changing from afternoon to morning... about 11 came, then 1 platoon went out for topography field trip at lim chu kang cemetry, slept at the cemetery.... quite spooky, but in the end when they came back, say only one thing, just went through the "blood donation drive" there....

Anyway, spend the whole day sorting out and labeling the tentage of both BB and GB... very tiring cos got to do it under the hot sun, mix and match the pole with the tentage. In the end, found a few tent with no poles or broken poles. Have to think of ways to replace it but that i will leave it to MR TAY. Hopefully, he will be able to find it... I also wanna take this opportunity to thank my 2 brothers: Kheng Sheng and most of all, Dennis, for helping me throughout the whole thing.

Also wanna thank Ms Constance for the card, felt really blessed to have bro and sis around me caring and showing concern for me.... Thank God for everything.... Today, God showed his power to me again... After the maintenance, felt really tired then lied down on the bench..but quite humid then i just pray out God send us some wind!! then a while later, the wind came and later gets stronger and stronger, finally it rained. Wow... weather suddenly change so fast didn't expect it also. Tomorrow will be submiting the accounts for youth camp and also meeting up with dennis so i shall stop here then...
Caleb at 9:31 PM

Today went out with Man, "Worm", Peh , "early bird", "Ding Ding" and the rest to orchard for lunch. Actually, morning they went to watch King Kong at cineleisure but too early for me so didn't join them. In the mean time, i meet up with Man and worm to go shop around for Christmas gift.. saw quite a few nice one but not enough $$ :( will go down again next week to buy the stuff... ( anyone intereste to joined me? Thong?)

Went to Pizza Hut at Centerpoint to eat. The service really sucks!!! We placed our order all together got 9 sets... but in the end only recorded 8 sets, then come and verify our order 2 time... still key in wrongly!!! very fed up... Then serving very slow.... say within 15 mins but in the end serve after 30 to 45 mins!!!!! Angry and Mad... in the end, may be they know so give us one set free but worst of all when payment time still short changed us!!!! All very very very ANGRY!!! This is the 1st and Last time that I'm going there to eat!!! Very disappointed with the service, not up to my expectation then the place like long time didn't tidy up... a bit dirty...

Anyway, after the meal went to paragon to buy something for our friend... then walk here and there... Finally, Home sweet home......

one more thing, tomorrow parade in the morning, dunno can wake up or not also tomorrow GB will be coming to check and get back their tentage... will be a tiring day for me.....
Caleb at 9:28 PM

Yesterday was a terrible day for me..... late for class early in the morning, then have some arguement with some of my classmates. Must really apologise to them cos lost control of myself.... Sorry everyone. Have class for 2 hours then meet for project, CMFI and QM. Quite alright, though holiday soon but as usual, project still occupies half of it.

After that, went down to HQ to visit my boys who is involve in the Sharity Gift Box. In the end, only saw Jin Jie there, the rest all been send out to the various boxes located around Singapore, from Orchard all the way to Chua Chu Kang, Bukit Timah. Then, Went down to the Orchard main box to visit them. The whole journey quite tiring traveling here and there. By the time i reach mainbox is already 4 plus then stay a while before going home. Reach home at around 6 like that. Then at night, someone drop by my house and something happen which causes me to be very very upset. This incident really bring me down to cry to God. All the things that happen causes me to be very demoralise..

Christmas is round the corner, during the worship last sunday, I ask what can we give Jesus for this Christmas? Now I'm still thinking about this question... Cos, i really dunno, perhaps what He needs is only true love and obedience from us.....
Caleb at 11:06 AM

Saturday after parade went to bukit timah to have dinner with Jon, Beng, Thong, Leo and Kang wei. Long time didn't have meal together... as the Judah cell... Have a lot of fun after that, went to Jon's poly ktv to sing... We all like siao liao... sing until mad like that... but have lots of fun...
After that, i went to Jon's house to stay overnite to do up the ppt slides for worship... Worship was quite good i think, at first scare congregation dunno how to sing the new songs but the response was good... then after that which went to 589A for caroling... Very the fun sia!! FUN at laughing at ppl and ourselves.. have dinner after that with ms joyann they all...

on my way to Sembawang Shopping centre, have a chat with constance... she ask me what i need for Christmas, and i think for sometime but can't really thought of anything.... Really must thank God, He has blessed me with so much that I dun seem to lack of anything... may be what i lack of is a girlfriend.......
Caleb at 10:15 AM

Finally back again to update about my life... Got quite a few things to talk about... Submitted my application form for the student exchange program to Germany. Yesterday, just went for the interview with the lecturers. If selected, will be flying over there and stay for 3.5 months, studying their uni modules for 1 semester. Really wanna go, cos feel that its a very very rare opportunity for me. Currently, still in the waiting list waiting....

Also, the past few weeks has been quite busy for me. Cos, has been rushing for the accounting challenge competition. The presentation is tomorrow, quite nervous le, cos never participate before, then this time manage to get into finals. Hopefully, we can win.

Just now after school, went to town to get something for my friend. The journey was very tiring. on the returned trip, sleep through out. But still very happy cos managed to find the thing. At first very scare that can't find it. Now at home resting, tonight got to sleep early, or else tomorrow can't make it for lecture then kanna warning letter again...

Got to go and bath now...
Caleb at 7:16 PM

Today is another raining day for me. As usual rained from morning till now, very cold. Today went to school nothing much. Go for auditing tutorial and then went for Quality management lecture. After that went for lunch then go do project. Dunno why, after IPP, doesn't seems to be able to focus, especially on project work. May be is becos slack too long liao, now get back to project can't adjust. I slack through out the 3 hours project work. I dun want to be like that!!!

I want to reach for my goal that is at least 1 or 2 As in my result this semester. Then upcoming, accounting challenge, NAPFA Test, Youth Camp. I want to go through all this with God's strength and I want to do well for my subject. Hence, my friends out there lease constantly remind me about my goal, thanks alot.

Countdown for Youth Camp: 3 days
Countdown for NAPFA test: 21hours...
Caleb at 7:53 PM

Now in Elearning plaza slacking, waiting for the next lecture, auditing. Today has been quite a lazy and yet sleepy day for me. perhaps thats what people call monday blues. Raining from morning to evening... weather very cooling till i wish that i don need to come to school. Today do something wrong.. felt very remorseful... hope that i can change from it through God's strength.

This week is gonna be a very busy week for me, seminars, guest lectures, ICAs and on top of that, NAPFA and Youth Camp. Schedule really very tight... hope i can cope with it. Still thinking whether to take the NAPFA test on Wed or Fri cos Friday need to come for ICA in the morning then afternoon still got class then rush down to woodlands for Youth Camp. WOW. Gonna be a tight day.. Hopefully can persuade the teacher to let me take leave so that i can go down earlier...
Caleb at 6:16 PM

today nothing much.. Wake up early in the morning to school for guest lecture. End up reaching late and the lecture also nothing much... Whole day very sleepy, cos long time didn't wake up so early liao... can't get used to it yet... Afternoon went to the gym for NAPFA Test training together with Yuen wei. The training was really effective, can feel the stretch on both the legs. Now still aching. Will continue to go for the training, and hopefully can pass the test.

Also, very upset. cos my management accounting textbook till now still MIA. Cost me 30 over dollars to buy... now MIA. bought it for a year liao but didn't use it. Now need it can't find it. very frustrated. Also, dunno whether got lent to ppl or not. Now still deciding whether to purchase a new textbook... a bit stupid and me broke also. Now praying very hard that the book will be kind enough to reveal its location to me...
Caleb at 11:40 PM

I'm back again to update on my life. Started school for few days liao but still can't feel anything yet.. may be is because of the 2 holidays that falls within the week... Back to school, feeling is totally different... last semester of my course in NYP.. Time really flies~~ Now I'm trying to put in my very best to finish the race... I wanna thank God for giving me a group of poly friends to really share all those joy and laughter with one another.. dunno what will happen when we all go on our seperate ways.... but anyway, its still far away la~~

Now, wanna focus on my study to score well for myself and for God. Hence, my friends out there, please help me to achieve this goal by reminding me whenever you sees me.
Caleb at 7:36 PM

Just came back from my birthday celebration with my Brothers.. This few days has been a wonderful time for me... cos has been receiving lots of wishing and present from my friends and brothers and sisters in Christ.. Time really flies... now turn 19 liao... wanna thank God for bringing in me through all those ups and downs of my life.... Also wanna thank everyone for all the gifts and care they have shown to me... a Big XIA XIA to you all!! Long time never have such a celebration for my birthday... However, next time i celebrate my birthday may be in the army camp liao... cos going for NS real soon... by then everyone has already embark on the next phase of their life.. dunno whether has chance to meet up... haiz

School gonna start on Monday... Need some time to adjust cos attachment has made my life very routine... Gonna meet all the classmates that I've not seen for a long long time.. (Though just 2 months only la) This is gonna be our final semester... I hope that i can really buck up and finish this final race with good results.. All the best to you all too, see you all in school...
Caleb at 12:44 AM

Well... well.. welll. Hi there, I'm back again to write something about my life!!!!! Yeah!!!!! Now is Wednesday , just two more days before my attachment ends... Now I've a mixture of feelings... happy that i'm gonna see my classmates and lecturers after SO SO SO LONG but... sad that about to leave the firm. but anyway, wil exchange number with them and keep in contact with them.

Anyway, today is really a wonderful day for me , with the accompanies of four lady, went to watch them movie, Flight Plan. The movie is really really really a very GOOD SHOW!!!! both thumbs up!! You guys and gals should go to the cinema and watch it. went to watch movie after work and have dinner together. its sort of a treat to our supervisor for taking care of us. Have a really good time.

Most important of all, I just wanna thank God for granting me a group of caring and loving colleagues/ Friends. Really experience the joy in workplace which most of the time ppl cannot have....

All right Folks! thats all for now, will update REAL soon.... SEE YA!!!
Caleb at 10:57 PM

HELLO!!! Back to update about my attachment!! The past few days has been quite relax for me, Cos my office is at tanjong pagar( so far right!!) but first day sit in office for a few hours then follow my colleague to the client's company. Guess where is it?? its at Bengawan Solo, which is at woodlands!!! very very happy, so near to my house.. morning can wake up late. Anyway, transport also very shiok, through and flow by one transport - TAXI. Past few days has been stationed at the client's company and hasn't return to the office yet, heard that gonna stay there for the next one week to audit the company's account. Whats even better is got lots and lots of cakes and pastries to eat!!!

Anyway, my job is basically to go through the balance sheet and profit and loss then draft up the unaudited annual report and computation of tax. today also do something else, going through of payment voucher and bank statement. very tiring sia, sit there read and read... haizz but luckily got very good colleague there to chit chat , and they are very friendly. lucky me, thought that the company is not really good ( which is true), but the colleagues are very friendly.

The company got a very weird trend, everyone is throwing their resignation like no other peopl business. like today, my colleague told me that her coy staff can actually take leave from coy to go interview in other coy and whatmore is she will be joining them also by tending her resignation by the end of the month!! Wow, i was like, okay... but feel quite funny lor, why work in a coy when you know that you won't stay long right?? anyway, respect her decision and wish her all the best!!

Will update more next time!!!
Caleb at 9:42 PM

Well, I'm back again to update my blog!! This week has been rather crucial for me. As this week is my exam week... so far, managed to pull through two of the paper and left with the last paper: Company Law which on tomorrow morning. I really really want to thank God for constance and wen min. Especially for constance. Cos, she has been there encouraging me to study hard and to always trust and have faith in God. This really helps me alot, cos me has been very very lazy in the aspect of both spiritual and school work.

Also, went to the National Day celebration @ Marina South on tuesday as performer for the sign language. Very very fun, but the weather is so so hot that most of kanna sun burn, especially for me, look like charcoal like that.... anyway the performance is good, hope that we can break the world record.. the part that i like most is the firework.. got star shape one.. very the nice.. now i'm still deciding whether to go for the sunday firework @ marina south...

oh... one more thing... I've know the company that I will be attached to for 13 weeks. i'm attached to a Accounting corporate firm at shenton way... don't know how it will be like... i'm the only in my class attached to the firm... hope that it will be a fruitful time for me..

ok update till here... signing out...
Caleb at 12:46 PM

Now is 8.57am. 1st day of study break. however, cannot feel anything at all. Maybe just woke up thats why still a bit blur blur. Anyway, Later i will be going for the 1st performance of the sign language thingy, dunno how it will turn out, me still a bit nervous le... will update when i come back..

signing out....s
Caleb at 8:56 AM

Finally, after a long time of silence, I'm back to update my blog. Been rather busy for the past 1-2 weeks cos have to meet lots of project deadlines.... Now much better, most of the project submit liao just left with a few more only... but however, this also means that my semestral exam is coming!!!! So sian..... time seems to fly past so fast.... about to come to the end of the semester.. didn't accomplished much... still as slack as before... trying to corect it but haiz.. can't seem to get serious about my life..... feel like just living it day by day... duno why also.. I really want to change the way i am now.... the life i'm living.... Thats why, I have set my goals.... to do well for the Semestral Exams!!!!!!!!!! My friends out there, especially my brothers... please constantly remind me abt it cos i know that i will forget at times.... alright think will stop here.. later still got a exam in the evening.. need to do some practice for it.....
Caleb at 11:02 AM

Today Morning went to Sembawang Sec to test out the PA system for the upcoming Enrolment service on saturday... Think the system may not be able to cope with the instrument used for the performance.. So tomorrow have to go down to the Church PA System to get some cables and equipment for the performance... Then after the testing at Sembawang, Went down to BB HQ with Nick, Jonathan and Thaddeaus to buy some badges for the boys and also to distribute our 20th anniversary booklet and cds to the HQ Stuff and place it at the pigeon hole of all the coy in Singapore.

After that, went down to Chinatown to shop for things since nick wanted to go OG. in the end, he bought a remote controlled air plane while thaddeaus bought a giordano polo tee. then after that, went down to orchard to shop for my shoes... got myself some voucher from Royal Sporting House... then at the same time jonathan and nick also bought themselves a pair of sunglasses... then thaddeaus and me decided to buy the glasses for Jonathan since his birthday is drawing near...

Then, we went to search for nearby RSH outlets but walk walk walk find only world of sports but no RSH outlets le... then nick joke that perhaps the RSH is winding up liao thtas why now giving out vouchers.... in the end manage to find one at centerpoint.... and found the shoe that i like.... but... no size for me.... haizzzzz.... asked the assistant to ask if the other outlets got or not then called me... hopefully got... then after that went for dinner and home sweet home.... really enjoy the day with thaddeaus they all... haven't really go out for some time liao... hopefully will have more of this in future.. :)
Caleb at 10:33 PM

well well well... today nothing much really happen.... as usual, went to church in the morning for service.. Btw, today is father's day!!! But my dad now is at oversea working very hard to provide us with a comfort living.. kinda miss him... actually I'm not really close to my dad... cos he has been at oversea for quite sometime and only came back every half a year.... Really want to take this opportunity to thank him for the ever loving care he has given us and want to wish him, ' Happy Father's Day!!!' though the possibilties of him seeing isn't that high....

then afternoon, went to Jack's place to book the cake for Ms Joyann's birthday.. quite late sia.. really extent my apology to my friends .. sorry guys and gals for booking the cake last minute.... luckily, managed to book the cake and will be going to collect it tomorrow... hopefully will be able to give her a suprise but its seems that she alreadly know our plans liao le... hope that we will be able to enjoy the session tomorrow...
Caleb at 10:09 PM

Today woke up early in the morning to meet my bb friends to go sentosa... Went to Siloso beach to play some ball game and frisbies... in the end, play about 2 hr then all tired liao , especially under the very hot sun... sweat like mad sia... then decided to go into the water for a swim... then when go shower... both my hands and back kanna sunburn... but i very happy le... cos my skin color has darken.. cos hasn't been going outdoor and friends say that i become more and more 'white'.

After that, very tired liao but still have to go down to the Church to help out in conducting basic first aid for the sec one boys. taught them bandaging.... then stayed for a while for dinner and went back home.. .initially wanted to join them in the night walk at seletar airport area sounds quite fun.. but really tired so in the end went straight home with Thong.

I would like to extend my sincere apology to my poly friends for my harsh words use in the previous entry... been rathered bothered by what man say.. so I would like to tell man, the mirror thought got crack, but like you say got feelings, so i will definitely cherish it no matter what!!! :)
Caleb at 10:02 PM

This few days been attending the night rally service of the GoForth Mission Conference at Suntec Convention. Quite a refreshing one... never really settle down to think about my life as a Christian. Been Christian for 5 years.... but then now like just following the flow of this world..... not living like a Christian, people do what also follow... Skip class, copy in ICAs, gossiping, making fun of people, hurting their feelings.... bla bla bla.... got a lot sia....

Through the services, I feel that it is a WAKE UP call from God. every service , I will learnt something out of it. I really want to thank HIM.. because at first just wanna go for one nite will do... then dunno how turns out go for 3 consecutive nites liao..... I dun want to be just listeners but to be the doers of His words!!!!! I really want to be the man that He called me to be....

something that i learnt in the service that give me a deep impression:

"This is a day of good news and we are keeping it to ourselves. If we wait until daylight, punishment will overtake us."

Caleb at 11:53 PM

Yesterday, Went to JB with my Classmates... Enjoyed alot... meet up with Come lin and her young sis then went to pick up her elder sis... her sis all very friendly.. joking and laughing.... Then went to Belangi to sing Karaoke.... me like wooden block... didn't really sing at first... haha then until the back got sing a bit la.. enjoy quite a lot.. and I hereby announced the execution of OPERATION MAKEOVER!!!! Duration: UNLIMITED. haha, dunno la will do it slowly la... after the 'Enlightenment' by Come Lin's Elder Sis.

Then after the session, went to watch the movie, 'Ghost Train' with Aina, Come lin and her younger sis. One thing I must mentioned: The movie SUCKS!!!!! Thought its a scarry movie, in the end, sat there for 45 mins listening to them dunno what they talking and see a few 'scarry' scene and THE END. Wow what a great deal sia... pay RM6 to sit in the cinema for 45mins, enjoying the air con and get bored to death by the movie...

After that we wen to meet up with the rest to go eat seafood... the place is real far... caught in the traffic jam... then travel very very far , duration: 1 Hour PLUS PLUS.. The food is good but no appetite.. cos backache by the time reached there... so eat a bit only la... after which we hop on the car and travel back to the custom... that ends our day in JB.

Though something unhappy happen during the trip ( Myself felt la) but just wanna tell the people that Yes, frankly speaking I'm very angry and unhappy abt what happened. However, today wake up like everythingokay liao.. but the incident cannot forget lor... Guess in near future, there will not be any trip to JB or even if there is , possibilities of me around is minimum...

"Our feeling is like a piece of mirror, once hurt.. it will break apart. when you try to glue it back... yes it will gel back but crack has been created..."
Caleb at 12:01 PM

Now feeling rather tired... leg pain ... walk and stand alot today... went to school from 9am till about 6pm ba.... actually did nothing much just went for class then during break time go library to study... actaully its just pei yung they all studying.. i just sit afttthere and read some boring books... Tomorrow is the exam dunno how i will do for it... just know that need to study real hard.. cos will be test on 6 chapters!!! I think later i need to stay up a bit later to study for it...

Anyay, Today is the 1st day of my School, NYP Club Crawl..... Quite crowded.. with people walking in and out of the sports hall. Went to watch Pei Voon perform for her cca, Chinese Orchestra. She performed really well!! very exciting when saw them beat the drum with nice and swift rythm... Then after lesson, went back to help out in my CCa and also to support Wee Leng for the NYP Idol.... The whole Idol is okay... some sung quite well some alright... but anyway, I will always Support Wee Leng!!!!!

After that, went to the lab to help Aina and Come lin to close the lab since i got time before my appointment.... quite easy le the job... then saw the " Power" of "J" when he walk to the lab and just look at us closing the lab lor.... Very the "Helpful" Sia.. Now understand why Aina hate him so much....

Then last of all... went to church for the skit rehearsal for the dinner at Grass root club on ths Saturday... Very very the fun... long time didn't act liao... but everyone was like laughing here and there.. really enjoy a lot. special thanks to Ms Joyann,our skit coordinator!!!! thanks for giving us such a good time.... Now i very very the tired but yet very happy... dunno why also... but guess will sleep early tonight then tomorrow morning wake up early to study.... Wish me luck for the exam!!!
Caleb at 10:45 PM

I'm very happy today... learnt quite a few lessons.... firstly, went to the life meeting for preparation of the club crawl... today Christine spoke about trusting God in all things... From 2 Chronicles on Jehosophat, king of Judah. How he rely on God when he was surronded by armies from 3 other nations and how he has led the whole nation into prayer and fasting.... I was deeply affected by the short message... indeed, many a times, i always tend to solve thing with my own style when problems come to me... and many a times, i make a whole mess out of my self... I really hope that i could be like the king... humble and constantly seeking God even in the times of trouble and crisis...

Another lesson that i learnt is during my Church Judah Cell Group... Today we have our lovely clearing house... say a few things about responsibilities, punctualities... and most of all ... ms Joyann talk about how to be thankful when we faced a lot of trouble or stress or unhappiness... I like what she say, " A Thankful Heart is a Happy Heart". It really some how speak to me... I was like thinking , "Have I been showing thankfulness to the people or things happening around me??" I doubt so..

I feel that I'm no longer the man I used to be.. In the past, I used to be the man who really is patient to my friends and always there to care and listen to them... However, now I become the nasty person who always go around criticising people , making fun of people, hurting their feelings... I really feel remorseful on what I have done to my friends... I Really wanna become the man that I used to be... The same, old Shi Qin.. Who is kind and gentle.... I think that like what my best friend, Jonathan says, " May be thats your First Love with God??" How I wish that I could have that feeling back once again..

I feel really sad... very very sad... I wanna change.. deep inside me... my heart is crying... I dunno what or How I should go about doing it....I think right now... Only God Knows....
Caleb at 10:35 PM

I very the angry now!!!!! just now sort of quarrel with my best friend over the phone for some minor matters... haiz... being a person liaising things is really not easily sia.... i really hope that it will benefits all of us... too long no cell group not good for us... but i think i also a bit too hot tempered. anyway, i really hope that all can come together to really have cell. Put God as our prioriety. I feel that many of us are like occupying ourselves all sorts of things and in the end, guess what? you found yourself losing focus on God and quite far away from Him. Then, you will try your best to go closer to Him, saying sorry, asking for forgiveness.... Haiz... thats very pathetic, don't you think so.... I really hope that we could constantly focus ourselves to Him... I really hope that we can grow together with one another but sometimes dreams are far aay from reality.... I hope that I could let go of everything and just focus on Him. I really wants to do that....

I really wants to let go of everything, Crusade, BB, Church , School... all of them.... and just find a place where i could be alone, where i could find peacefulness.. I'm feeling rather tired....

You may say that I'm fleeing from my responsibilities, I dunno... perhaps now is the time that i let go and focus on studies... and most importnt of all, spend sometime with God....
Caleb at 9:42 PM

Well here I am again, after being silent for quite sometime.... Been quite slacking for the past few weeks.... Thought now last year in Poly before I graduate, I still feel no sense of urgency.... Dunno why le... try to buck up but somehow after sometime will be back to square 1... Haiz... really need someone to force me to study real hard... cos really want to score well for my exams....

Recently, I feel that I will get easily frustrated by some minor things and thus throw my temper on friends around me... Dunno why also... is it my spiritual walk with HIM is not good or the problems lies in me... I feel that my problem of suaning people and making fun of people is really bad.... I really wanted to do something about it... but I dunno how... Maybe friends out there can help me by constantly remind me to watch my language so that I will say words that will hurt peoples' feelings. Also, My fellow classmates, anyone want to form study group, cos me really very jia luck, need a helping hand from you guys... ANYONE CAN HELP ME!!!! May be God can help....

Lastly, my sincere apologies to all who have been hurt by the words that I say or anything that I've done, hope that you all will forgive me....
Caleb at 8:20 PM

Just came back from the 20th anniversary celebration of my CCa, Boys' Brigade 13th Singapore Company. Really enjoy alot, though didn't really have much interaction with all my old time kaki esp. some of my Seniors... Anyway, we have a 9 course dinner at Sembawang Secondary which was really delicious!!! Went through the trooping of our 1st Brand new color... as i go through the dinner, thoughts came to my mind... Time really flies, so far this is my 7th year serving in the Boys' Brigade 13th Singapore Company. Really want to thank God for His mercy and kindness that He led me to BB where I get to know a group of caring officers and eventually became a child of God and joined them together as the family of God.

Till today, I'm proud to say that I have no regrets joining BB!!! Just now, as I played the 20th anniversary cd, going through all those videos included in the cd... My heart was really touched by how God has worked in the lifes of the many who joined the BB and GB. Actually, I've a thought of leaving the CCa that I grew for a break to focus on my Poly CCA, Campus Crusade for Christ. However, after watching through the videos, my heart really goes out to the boys.... I think BB is now in my Blood, can't get rid of it liao..

Now I need to make a decision, Focus on BB or Crusade??? I do not know.... May be brothers and sisters out there can pray for me that God will show me the plan that I may glorify Him to the Fullest. Also, pray that I will continue to trust in the Lord and shine for Him wherever I go.

One last thing, I wish to apologise for my rudeness of the words that comes out from my mouth. Most of the time, I speak of words that unintention harm peoples feeling.... May those who was hurt forgive me and please do constantly correct me should I do it again.

May all glory be unto GOD!!!!

PS: This is the longest I have ever wrote... hope you all don't mind :)
Caleb at 1:24 AM

After 1 month of silence.... I'm BACK!!! Finally got sometime to write about what happen today..As usual, Went to Church today for the sunday worship service. The topic for today is the four kinds of seeds that is being planted. it refers to the four type of persons: unresponsive non- Christian, Short lived Christian, Rocky Christian, Good and responsive Christian. I began to ponder which type am i in. Cos my walk with the Lord wasn't that smooth, i sometimes tends to be a bit ill-disciplined. Anyway, today we also have the General Staff Meeting cum 20th anniversary meeting. Was rather excited about the 20th anniversary celebration. its a very grand event and we are inviting 200 over people to attend. Can't wait to attend the event sia, seeing long old time friends. However, i was rather question about the mess that is in the Logistics room. Now i need to quickly get the boys to clear it up. Hopefully can get it done before Enrolment service or before the End of April.

Also another thing, today then i realise... I'M BROKE!!!!!!!! Now my allowance only left 100plus then still got at least 27 days to go!!!!! How am i going to survive sie.. spend too much money liao... Think must cut down on my expenses Especially.. EATING!!! NO Macdonald breakfast, No movie, NO takeaway. Strictly eat in school!!!! hopefully it will help me to save some money and bring me through till the next month.Think i will write till here. Will update more when i have the time.
Caleb at 11:15 PM

Today went to my church members' wedding... the main hall for the wedding was beatifully decorated.. with the flowers and ribbons... then the ceremony was very solemn also... the bride and the bride groom exchanging their vows and help each other put on the rings... all very beautiful done up... The part that i like most is duringthe playing of the video about their life story on how they met each other and fell in love and best of all is when the guy sing a song to the bride durig the appreciation... I was like.. WOW.. it was really great... hope that i can have a wedding like this in future... though i'm still single now ..... Really being reminded about the importance of getting a christian girlfriend...

Anyway, after the wedding at the church, me, beng and the guys plus hotdog gal strawberry snowball with saigo plus the decor went to Causeway point. the gals went to take neo print (What a waste of $$!!) while the guys went to play pool. I was really very lucky.. anyhow whack also in.... really enjoy the game... but the latter part not nice liao.... The rest of them all went home left me ,qiu song and leo play pool while decor at neo print shop ... then we thought of gonig home... saw a lot people at the escalator so leo brought us to take lift then change to stairs instead. but it was a WRONG MOVE!!! We walk from level 2 to 1 but when we try to open the door... oh shit it was LOCK!!! then we try to walk back to level 2.. guess what... it was LOCKED TOO!!! the door has a sign, "ONE SIDED DOOR". I was like ... what the... then find all sort of way to open the door but it all fail one by one. in the end, no choice, seek HELP!!! gave decor a call to ask her to come and open the door for us... in the end, after some walking of stairs, we are finally FREE!!! at the end of the day, lesson learnt read the sign before enter and DO NOT Trust leo in guiding the way!!!!

Haizz... anyway, tomorrow is my friend, Wee Leng's Star Search Competiton (Final). Will be going down to support her. the venue is at tampines mall, 5pm. So guys & gals, if you are free, do come down and support her okay..... she really very well!! Okay guess thats all ... got to sleep now... signing out...
Caleb at 12:39 AM

My oh my... today is already the third day of my block leave.... time really passes so fast that before we know that something happen its already over.... Spend the past few days in school playing badminton, meeting supervisor, going for lab session.... haiz.. how i wish i can do something more meaningful with the block leave i have.. now slacking at home rotting to death... with nothing to do... wanted to go out but have no idea where to go... besides most of my friends are now studying in school..... I wanted to go Malaysia to shop around or eat seafood but no one accompany..... now really feel kinda sad...sob sob... why am i stuck in this kinda of situation ??? you know it really drive me crazy when I'm on leave and yet i do not know where to go~!!

Anyway, hope that the rest of the block leave i will have place to go... friends out there if you want to go out but cannot find people to accompany, perhaps can find me... please brng me out of this bored bored life!!!!
Caleb at 12:11 PM

Today was the start of my 5 days Block leave.... spend the whole morning in school to play badminton with Hwa Qi, Yand Dan and Heling.... was quite a tiring session for me... spend about 3 hrs for the game.. long time didn't play so enjoyable liao.. intend to come back everyday in the morning to play badminton with hwa Qi, Edina and the rest....

Now I'm stuck in the TPRD room waiting for my supervisor, Susan Chua to come and meet us..... She is supposed to meet us at 2pm but now is already 5 liao still no sight of her yet....... shes so irresponsible lor... waste my block leave time here waiting for her.... if she didn't come later i'm gonna complain to Mona Ang and demand for a claim of hours!! now very sleepy and frustrated sia..... thik not a good start for my Block leave... not in the mood to write liao... guess will just stop here...
Caleb at 5:02 PM

today was a tiring yet enjoyable day for me.... Wake up early in the morning to go back to school to attend the Accounting Seminar. When arrived, only saw a few people from my class, the rest all didn't turn up.... I was like... what lao... very sian sia all didn't turn up. Luckily the seminar was quite beneficial to me.... The speaker talk about how to get a ACCA CPA status, how do we enrol as members of ICPAS and auditing as a career. Last time didn't really know much about all this CPA thingy... now realised wow... so tediously sia.... must really work hard to get a ACCA recognition...

After the Seminar, I try to get people to go to PS to catch a movie and at the same time to support my good friend, Wee leng at the A-square talent competition.... but then all like see first then no choice... me and zhong wei go down 1st to check the timing for the movies... When reach there, check the movie time liao ... went to the arcade and spent like 6 dollars withing half an hour.... i like wow... spend so much in such a short time... what a waste.... next time must control myself sia or else my pocket will have a big big hole yo.... Anyway, in the end ... only He ling, Yan Dan, Zhong wei, Phoenix Pig and me went for the movie. We chose to watch Constantine..... the movie was really very nice... the fighting scene all that..... and a bit humorous also..... while we were enjoying the show.. we really forgot about the voting for Wee Leng... until Kylie call us to tell us that the voting has started then we quickly rush off to the stage to vote for her... We miss the chance to see her dance and singing.... really must say a veri BIG SORRY to her sia.... Luckily in the end, she managed to get into the final.. YEAH!!!!! Very happy for her... cos she really practised very hard lor the dance....

Anyway, after the competition, me, peiyung,zhong wei and the rest went to cineleisure for dinner and at the same time watch the Chinn-gay performance. The place was really very the crowded.... got difficulties trying to get through the crowd... but i really enjoy alot... all the fun laughing... the princess and servant thingy.... Haha... long time never this relax liao... always busy with this and that... Finally today, i can really go around and relax myself... Want to thank my friends for always there to joke with me ... and listen to all my lame jokes... thanks a million!!! Wow today i wrote vey long sia... like essay .... if you are reading ... just want to thank you for your patience... See ya!!!

*PS:those X rated people better be alert and guard your mouth hor or else....
Caleb at 12:39 AM

Back to write something that happen today..... Today was a dull and boring day for me. Most of my team members went for their block leaves then left with me, Wee Leng and Slevie. Slevie then keep playing MIA sort , thats makes it down to the two of us. Haiz.... still have to complete the report.. creativity project.. and the stupid MM poroject. Dun even know can finish or not. moreover, the Hide behind scene supervisor, Susan Chua after 5 weeks of disappearance, finally emerged to the foreground and wants to meet our team tomorrow morning. When i 1st heard that, i was like ..okay... meet our team.. just me and Wee Leng lor. Hack la, just tell her what we know then let her decide la. Frustrating sia.

Anyway, today went to play badminton with hwa qi, Shi yun, Zhi hao and wee leng. Really enjoy the game. I must really give Shi Yun the best entertainer award. She was like singing, dancing while she is playing. Even though she don't really know how to play badminton, but she really make us laugh all the hell out. I think we are laughing more than playing the game. Shi Yun say tomorrow she still wants to play Badminton. I guess everyone has been influence to play badminton in the afternoon. tomorrow is the customer service test, but till now still haven't touch the notes yet... think later will go and glance through and try to remember the points. Guess thats all for today... will update the blog next time.. Cya!!!
Caleb at 10:58 PM

Well i'm back to write something that happen yesterday.... Yesterday, as usual i went to church for the sunday service in the morning. Arthur suddenly told me that he want to use cordless mic for the system. then i have to fixed up for him. however can't seems to increase the volume le... its like though i push it up to the highest point still very soft le. then no choice lor... change back to the wired mic then better. Haizz.... waste so much trouble then in the end still go back to usual... anyway... the service was good lor... asking us to be a shining light for our friends... then also the way that we behave.... i was like thinking hmmm... at home actually i quite lazy le... dun really help much in the household chores.. sometimes even vent my anger on my mum... feel so guilty .... anyway i decided to help out more and to try to be more patience in the things that i do...

After service, went all the way down to teck whye to collect my spectacles... the weather was very very hot..... when i reach there, i was like sweating whole out. Then the shop was really crowded... i waited a while then show the staff my receipts. she look at it awhile and just tell me sorry can't give you the spectacles today come tomorrow. I was like .... oh... you are wasting my time lor... go all the way down then tell me not ready then tell me monday ready la. spoil my mood for the day.

Anyway, i was very happy when my family go out together at night for our early reunion dinner at Sembawang Shopping Centre. For so long, This is the 1st time that all the five of us are present for the dinner, especially my dad. As he works overseas, only come back like once every 6 months, i really cherious the time that we can spend togetehr as a family. I really enjoyed the meal whereby we joke around , chit chatting.... Really hope that we can have more sessions like this. just want to thank God for giving me such a lovingly family, my dad, loving mum, caring sis and not to forget my elder bro. Guess thats all , will be back to blog soon
Caleb at 1:26 PM

well well well.... I'm back again!! Last wednesday, we held a concert in our school organised by my cca, Campus Crusade for Christ. We managed to invite Parousia, a local Christian rock band to perform in the concert. At first when i heard of the name, "Parousia", i was like telling myself, who is this Parousia?? never heard before le..... However, when i heard them perform that day, i was like WOW they rock man!!! their music is so nice and they really played very well with their instrument(Keyboard, Acoustic Guitar). The vocal, Lloyd really sings very well. I was like enjoying in it. One student came to know the LOrd through the concert~!! I was very happy even though at first i was very anxious, dunno whether people will come or not and the response dunno also. Anyway, the people came is under our expectation but i still feel happy cos at least one came to know the Lord and I'm sure theres more to come~~!!!

Anyway, I bought the band's album from the sales. It was really nice though a bit rock but i really like the music especially the song, "Mistaken". It really brought out my walk with GOD through out the past few years. Sometimes, i really think that i'm a very very bad child. Cos i keep sinning against HIM making Him sad , yet He still willing to help me out and forgive me and reaccept me. I dunno how long i will be on this Earthly world and what's the plan He has for me but i hope that i will be able to accomplish whatever task that He entrust to me before i meet Him face to face. Ok guess that it .... i will end here then... Signing out....

Caleb at 11:23 AM

" there was once a guy who fell in love with this gal. Everytime he saw her, he will feel very very joyful throughout the day. In the days that he didn't see her, he will be like a man without soul, walking around throughout the day. He knew that she is attached with a man which she loves alot but he just couldn't tell himself to give up the love for her. Yet in the same way, afraid that she may reject him, he kept the feeling for her deep in his heart. He wanted to tell her that he really likes her alot but scared that the girl will reject him and the friendship wil be gone... forever. What this guy want to do at this point... is to really stay around her, caring for her, giving her a helping hand when she is in need of help....."

I've always been trying to find the gal of my life throughout the last few years... It really makes me envy to see friends who are attached so lovely and caring for their stead. Sometimes i wonder ... God when are you going to lead me to the lady of my life?? i really want to experience that kinda of love which every couple experience... Everytime when i saw a gal that i like... my heart really falls on her . however, everytime i fall in love with that gal, i know that i can never be with her. As she is not a Christian.... People may find it stupid to bother about whether their gf is Christian or not. To me, its really help us to understand wach other better.
I do not know when the girl of my life is going to appear in my life but i guess i will have to wait till HE send her to me .
Caleb at 7:46 PM

Went to Church today... the service was quite alright. Beng and thong didn't come to church also. Both got something on. Quite boring today, nthing much to do. After lunch with Jonathan and Ken they all , just proceed straight to home.

Went to see the blog of thong,leo, sher etc.. WoW.. I began to feel that time has really change... many of them are in a relationship now and every now and then can hear ppl break up then after a while got another relationship. A question pops up my mind, " do they really know what relationship is all about??" I feel that lots and lots of people doesn't know how to handle relationship and they don't really treat it seriously. Without any thoughts , they just suka suka went into relationship then later find each other not suitable. Haizzz... dunno what on earth is going on.. maybe people will think i'm wrong but i'm just giving my views about the things that going on around me.

tomorrow is another day of schooling for me.... attachment from 8.30 to 6 really makes me sianzzz... still got another 3 more months to go.... tomorrow after schooling still have to go for rehearsal for the Mass evangelism concert this coming wednesday. Dunno how the response will be like but i know that God is in control !!! ok i think thats about it... signing out...
Caleb at 7:34 PM

It has been donkey years since i last wrote my blog. at first started very excited then as it goes on kinda get bored... Anyway, i'm back again to write my blog!!! The week has been rather stressful for me... get invovled in quite a number of stuff like CCa (BB, Crusade), andd still got my attachment which is everyday 8.30 to 6pm.... very the sianz sia....

Later will going for the parade to settle the logistics room and also be leading the singspiration. Got tonnes & tonnes of work waiting for me to clear. Just dunno why i put my self in this kind of situation... Stressful life. getting involved in lots of stuff and then get drain out... kinda foolish. Anyway, i think my load will lighten when i step down from the Crusade. Got to go.. signing out
Caleb at 7:42 AM