Today Morning went to Sembawang Sec to test out the PA system for the upcoming Enrolment service on saturday... Think the system may not be able to cope with the instrument used for the performance.. So tomorrow have to go down to the Church PA System to get some cables and equipment for the performance... Then after the testing at Sembawang, Went down to BB HQ with Nick, Jonathan and Thaddeaus to buy some badges for the boys and also to distribute our 20th anniversary booklet and cds to the HQ Stuff and place it at the pigeon hole of all the coy in Singapore.

After that, went down to Chinatown to shop for things since nick wanted to go OG. in the end, he bought a remote controlled air plane while thaddeaus bought a giordano polo tee. then after that, went down to orchard to shop for my shoes... got myself some voucher from Royal Sporting House... then at the same time jonathan and nick also bought themselves a pair of sunglasses... then thaddeaus and me decided to buy the glasses for Jonathan since his birthday is drawing near...

Then, we went to search for nearby RSH outlets but walk walk walk find only world of sports but no RSH outlets le... then nick joke that perhaps the RSH is winding up liao thtas why now giving out vouchers.... in the end manage to find one at centerpoint.... and found the shoe that i like.... but... no size for me.... haizzzzz.... asked the assistant to ask if the other outlets got or not then called me... hopefully got... then after that went for dinner and home sweet home.... really enjoy the day with thaddeaus they all... haven't really go out for some time liao... hopefully will have more of this in future.. :)
Caleb at 10:33 PM

well well well... today nothing much really happen.... as usual, went to church in the morning for service.. Btw, today is father's day!!! But my dad now is at oversea working very hard to provide us with a comfort living.. kinda miss him... actually I'm not really close to my dad... cos he has been at oversea for quite sometime and only came back every half a year.... Really want to take this opportunity to thank him for the ever loving care he has given us and want to wish him, ' Happy Father's Day!!!' though the possibilties of him seeing isn't that high....

then afternoon, went to Jack's place to book the cake for Ms Joyann's birthday.. quite late sia.. really extent my apology to my friends .. sorry guys and gals for booking the cake last minute.... luckily, managed to book the cake and will be going to collect it tomorrow... hopefully will be able to give her a suprise but its seems that she alreadly know our plans liao le... hope that we will be able to enjoy the session tomorrow...
Caleb at 10:09 PM

Today woke up early in the morning to meet my bb friends to go sentosa... Went to Siloso beach to play some ball game and frisbies... in the end, play about 2 hr then all tired liao , especially under the very hot sun... sweat like mad sia... then decided to go into the water for a swim... then when go shower... both my hands and back kanna sunburn... but i very happy le... cos my skin color has darken.. cos hasn't been going outdoor and friends say that i become more and more 'white'.

After that, very tired liao but still have to go down to the Church to help out in conducting basic first aid for the sec one boys. taught them bandaging.... then stayed for a while for dinner and went back home.. .initially wanted to join them in the night walk at seletar airport area sounds quite fun.. but really tired so in the end went straight home with Thong.

I would like to extend my sincere apology to my poly friends for my harsh words use in the previous entry... been rathered bothered by what man say.. so I would like to tell man, the mirror thought got crack, but like you say got feelings, so i will definitely cherish it no matter what!!! :)
Caleb at 10:02 PM

This few days been attending the night rally service of the GoForth Mission Conference at Suntec Convention. Quite a refreshing one... never really settle down to think about my life as a Christian. Been Christian for 5 years.... but then now like just following the flow of this world..... not living like a Christian, people do what also follow... Skip class, copy in ICAs, gossiping, making fun of people, hurting their feelings.... bla bla bla.... got a lot sia....

Through the services, I feel that it is a WAKE UP call from God. every service , I will learnt something out of it. I really want to thank HIM.. because at first just wanna go for one nite will do... then dunno how turns out go for 3 consecutive nites liao..... I dun want to be just listeners but to be the doers of His words!!!!! I really want to be the man that He called me to be....

something that i learnt in the service that give me a deep impression:

"This is a day of good news and we are keeping it to ourselves. If we wait until daylight, punishment will overtake us."

Caleb at 11:53 PM

Yesterday, Went to JB with my Classmates... Enjoyed alot... meet up with Come lin and her young sis then went to pick up her elder sis... her sis all very friendly.. joking and laughing.... Then went to Belangi to sing Karaoke.... me like wooden block... didn't really sing at first... haha then until the back got sing a bit la.. enjoy quite a lot.. and I hereby announced the execution of OPERATION MAKEOVER!!!! Duration: UNLIMITED. haha, dunno la will do it slowly la... after the 'Enlightenment' by Come Lin's Elder Sis.

Then after the session, went to watch the movie, 'Ghost Train' with Aina, Come lin and her younger sis. One thing I must mentioned: The movie SUCKS!!!!! Thought its a scarry movie, in the end, sat there for 45 mins listening to them dunno what they talking and see a few 'scarry' scene and THE END. Wow what a great deal sia... pay RM6 to sit in the cinema for 45mins, enjoying the air con and get bored to death by the movie...

After that we wen to meet up with the rest to go eat seafood... the place is real far... caught in the traffic jam... then travel very very far , duration: 1 Hour PLUS PLUS.. The food is good but no appetite.. cos backache by the time reached there... so eat a bit only la... after which we hop on the car and travel back to the custom... that ends our day in JB.

Though something unhappy happen during the trip ( Myself felt la) but just wanna tell the people that Yes, frankly speaking I'm very angry and unhappy abt what happened. However, today wake up like everythingokay liao.. but the incident cannot forget lor... Guess in near future, there will not be any trip to JB or even if there is , possibilities of me around is minimum...

"Our feeling is like a piece of mirror, once hurt.. it will break apart. when you try to glue it back... yes it will gel back but crack has been created..."
Caleb at 12:01 PM

Now feeling rather tired... leg pain ... walk and stand alot today... went to school from 9am till about 6pm ba.... actually did nothing much just went for class then during break time go library to study... actaully its just pei yung they all studying.. i just sit afttthere and read some boring books... Tomorrow is the exam dunno how i will do for it... just know that need to study real hard.. cos will be test on 6 chapters!!! I think later i need to stay up a bit later to study for it...

Anyay, Today is the 1st day of my School, NYP Club Crawl..... Quite crowded.. with people walking in and out of the sports hall. Went to watch Pei Voon perform for her cca, Chinese Orchestra. She performed really well!! very exciting when saw them beat the drum with nice and swift rythm... Then after lesson, went back to help out in my CCa and also to support Wee Leng for the NYP Idol.... The whole Idol is okay... some sung quite well some alright... but anyway, I will always Support Wee Leng!!!!!

After that, went to the lab to help Aina and Come lin to close the lab since i got time before my appointment.... quite easy le the job... then saw the " Power" of "J" when he walk to the lab and just look at us closing the lab lor.... Very the "Helpful" Sia.. Now understand why Aina hate him so much....

Then last of all... went to church for the skit rehearsal for the dinner at Grass root club on ths Saturday... Very very the fun... long time didn't act liao... but everyone was like laughing here and there.. really enjoy a lot. special thanks to Ms Joyann,our skit coordinator!!!! thanks for giving us such a good time.... Now i very very the tired but yet very happy... dunno why also... but guess will sleep early tonight then tomorrow morning wake up early to study.... Wish me luck for the exam!!!
Caleb at 10:45 PM

I'm very happy today... learnt quite a few lessons.... firstly, went to the life meeting for preparation of the club crawl... today Christine spoke about trusting God in all things... From 2 Chronicles on Jehosophat, king of Judah. How he rely on God when he was surronded by armies from 3 other nations and how he has led the whole nation into prayer and fasting.... I was deeply affected by the short message... indeed, many a times, i always tend to solve thing with my own style when problems come to me... and many a times, i make a whole mess out of my self... I really hope that i could be like the king... humble and constantly seeking God even in the times of trouble and crisis...

Another lesson that i learnt is during my Church Judah Cell Group... Today we have our lovely clearing house... say a few things about responsibilities, punctualities... and most of all ... ms Joyann talk about how to be thankful when we faced a lot of trouble or stress or unhappiness... I like what she say, " A Thankful Heart is a Happy Heart". It really some how speak to me... I was like thinking , "Have I been showing thankfulness to the people or things happening around me??" I doubt so..

I feel that I'm no longer the man I used to be.. In the past, I used to be the man who really is patient to my friends and always there to care and listen to them... However, now I become the nasty person who always go around criticising people , making fun of people, hurting their feelings... I really feel remorseful on what I have done to my friends... I Really wanna become the man that I used to be... The same, old Shi Qin.. Who is kind and gentle.... I think that like what my best friend, Jonathan says, " May be thats your First Love with God??" How I wish that I could have that feeling back once again..

I feel really sad... very very sad... I wanna change.. deep inside me... my heart is crying... I dunno what or How I should go about doing it....I think right now... Only God Knows....
Caleb at 10:35 PM

I very the angry now!!!!! just now sort of quarrel with my best friend over the phone for some minor matters... haiz... being a person liaising things is really not easily sia.... i really hope that it will benefits all of us... too long no cell group not good for us... but i think i also a bit too hot tempered. anyway, i really hope that all can come together to really have cell. Put God as our prioriety. I feel that many of us are like occupying ourselves all sorts of things and in the end, guess what? you found yourself losing focus on God and quite far away from Him. Then, you will try your best to go closer to Him, saying sorry, asking for forgiveness.... Haiz... thats very pathetic, don't you think so.... I really hope that we could constantly focus ourselves to Him... I really hope that we can grow together with one another but sometimes dreams are far aay from reality.... I hope that I could let go of everything and just focus on Him. I really wants to do that....

I really wants to let go of everything, Crusade, BB, Church , School... all of them.... and just find a place where i could be alone, where i could find peacefulness.. I'm feeling rather tired....

You may say that I'm fleeing from my responsibilities, I dunno... perhaps now is the time that i let go and focus on studies... and most importnt of all, spend sometime with God....
Caleb at 9:42 PM