Flew back from Singapore yesterday, finished with the funeral of my grandma. Felt really tired and sad right now. In my heart, I can’t seem to let her go even though she has left us. I really hope that I could turn back the time, back to the time when I’m just a small kid where she will always be there to take care of me. Even though, as we grow up, we become busy with our life and tends to visit her lesser, she always will ask about how we are doing. When we visit her, she will always be very glad, and will chat with us about our recent life.

I really miss her a lot. I know it’s a relief for her as she has been going through pains due to cancer and lung infection. I just can’t bear the fact that she is gone. I think this pain will stay with us for quite a while, I don’t really know how to cope with it but I will try to.

I would like to dedicate this entry to my beloved grandma. I just want to tell her, “Thank you Ah ma for all the care and love you have for us for the past many years. I know we haven’t been doing our duty well as your grandchildren. I hope that you will be happy in whatever place you are in now. We will take good care of ourselves and stay united as one family just like what you have told us to. We will really miss you…”
Caleb at 6:51 PM